Laura's Journal Entries

Monday, Sunny.

Today is the D.A.R Meeting of my business college. I’ve been thinking about it all the time when I was walking down the park as I usually did. I didn’t even get to hand the piece of cookie to the little street dog under the old tree. I saved it for him form yesterday’s dinner. Sorry doggy. I will bring something else for you next time. I was waiting for mom to talk about it. But she was just talking about other things over and over. I had to mention it. Just as I thought, mom was mad. I had to explain to her how much I tried but I just couldn’t. Just the feeling of standing there makes me sick. She started to talk about the marriage and said that she want to find me a gentlemen caller. I don’t want no gentlemen caller! And no gentleman caller wants me either. People like Jim doesn’t exist everyday. No one besides me smile at me. He was the only one that treated me just like others...or, maybe even a little bit special… He must be married with a nice wife now. And me… might just have to live with me crippled leg for the rest of my life.

Tuesday, not sure.

I don’t feel like going out today. Mom had already known that I don’t go to school any more. I don’t want to pretend anymore either. I wonder if Tom is doing ok. Mom took away his novel  yesterday. They had a huge fight. Tom even said a very mean sentence to mom and said he doesn’t want to talk with her anymore. He even made my glass menageries dropped on the floor. I’m glad Sophia was not broken, she’s the only friend I have now. I really wish I could do something to stop these endless fight. Tom, please apologize to mom. And mom, please forgive him.

I was ready for bad but I hear Tom coming home and I opened the door for him. He’s so drunk! He knows that mom doesn’t like people who drinks and get drunk all the time. He will make mom so worried. He said he goes to movies and explained why the movie was so long. I don’t know if he’s telling the truth but I know I don’t want him to do it any more.

Wednesday, Cloudy.

I had to get up early today because mom asked me to buy some butter for her. I don’t know if she heard me crying yesterday, I wish mom is not worried about me too. I begged Tom to apologize to mom. It seems like he did. And I just stayed with Sophia for the rest of the day. Sophia, I wish I can be a unicorn just like you. I can be free, walk anywhere I want and just enjoy the times with my families. Unicorns don’t fight with their families right? And they don’t have to work and pay for the bills, do they? I’m glad you are always here with me Sophia. You are the best listener ever.

Thursday, Sunny.

I went to the park today and handed that little dog the cookie. He jumped around me so happily. I knew he would like it! I don’t know what Tom had told mom and got her so anxious. I asked mom, which I shouldn't have, and she told me that Tom had found me a gentlemen caller! I’m not ready yet! And mom is preparing a big dinner! Why does it have to be so serious. What if he doesn’t like me? What if he leaves right after seeing me crippled? What if… what if something even worth happen? I’m too afraid to even think of it! I feel so sick now. Sophia, would you tell me what to do?

Friday, Rainy.

I met my first gentlemen caller today. I didn’t believe my ears when I heard his name. He is Jim, James D. O’Connor. I wasn’t sure if I liked him when we were in high school. But today, as he kissed me, I knew he was my first crush. And I still like him now. But so what? He’s engaged. Oh wait, maybe, I shouldn’t even call him my gentlemen caller. He didn’t come for me. He just got the invitation and met me and… comforted me. We danced. He lifted me up. At that moment, it felt like I was flying. Like if I was finally loved by someone. But we broke Sophia’s horn. I couldn’t blame him. He did it to make me happy and I really was happier than ever. Sophia, he made me feel like all other person. He said I’m pretty. He said I’m good. He’s just so nice to me that I don’t even feel any disappointed by myself anymore. Even after he said that he’s engaged, I’m not sad at all. I can’t be mad at him. A nice man like him should have a good match. Now, I only wish him the best. Sophia, I don’t feel strange any more. You’ve lost you horn. Maybe now you can talk with other horses there too. We can both try to make some more friends now. After I put Sophia back to her position, I start to wonder where mom and Tom are. I think I might’ve heard them talking but I was talking to Sophia so I didn’t pay attention. It seems like Tom is not home. Maybe he went to the movies again. I will wait for him and open the door. Hope my dear brother remembered the lesson and doesn’t get himself drunk tonight.